Peace

How do I get there? How do I get past all this hurt and pain I feel on a daily basis and feel some sort of peace? I wish it was easier, I wish I could wake up tomorrow and it will all be gone. The negative thoughts, the constant thinking and rethinking about the same things, the bad things that have happened. How do I make peace with what he has done to this family, and especially to me? There are days when I literally feel like I could lose it. I want to punch something, or just scream for an hour.

Ugh....I could really use a break from all this crap. I feel like its hard to move forward when I'm constantly consumed with hurt, sadness and pain. There are days when I can actually feel the pain, it is there dull and aching, and always reminding me what he has done to me. I hope this will pass....it has to...otherwise I'm not sure I'll make it.

It's just one of "those" days. I feel like lately, I have been having a lot of those days. On days that are better, its like I have this super power to lock those feelings away, and not let them take over. I hope that with time I will be able to lock them away forever.