Things have been different lately. I'm not even sure how to articulate how I have been feeling these past few weeks. I feel good, nervous, excited, scared, etc. It's amazing how experiences in life can send us spinning into a cluster of feelings.
I generally feel better lately. And when I say feel better, I mean in every way. I feel better about myself, more confident, happier, and loved by the people that matter the most. I have come to realize that the bad things I have been through in the past two years has led me to where I am now. As much as it was hard, and at times, could not imagine living on my own, without that other person to counter balance my world. The thing is, I'm better off without him. I know that now. I am actually a better person, a better Mom, and a better friend without him. That says a lot I think about how our relationship was just not a good one.
I can picture a future now, just me and the kids, and I am at peace with that, and to be honest a little excited about the possibilities life can present.
